that's it, I've decided

i'm going to start writing music.

i'm going to start touring and making music.

that will be my job, that will be my life.

i've got new friends

and I need prayer, because I want to be a good witness to them.

i've never really had nonchristian friends so this is a cool opportunity for me.

i just pray that God will use me in it to be a light in this dark world to them and all the people i meet while i'm hanging out with them.

yup. i did it!

i no longer work at target.


está bien. God opened up the school opportunity again :]

pues, ya regreso yo a mi blog

como te sientes?

no puedo dormir y ya levanta el sol.

acabo de salir de mi trabajo y pienso que voy a dejar eso ya.

la escuela en que yo trabaje como un 'crossing guard' me llamó ayer y ellos quieren que regrese yo.

pienso que es lo que quiero hacer.

otra vez, mi vida está en las manos de Dios (jer. 29:11), es un lugar mejor que mis manos.

ora a Dios para mí, gracias :]

(how are you?

i can't sleep and the sun's already coming up.

i just left work and I think I'm gonna leave that job already.

the school I worked at like a 'crossing guard' called me yesterday and they want me to come back.

i think that's what i want to do.

once again, my life is in God's hands (jer. 29:11), and that's a much better place than my hands.

pray for me, thanks :] )

whoa its never been so long

well here i am again with another post...

about a month and 2 weeks later. hahaha

everything is going well, my family situation is nice, work is fine, and school just started.

church is amazing. i now understand the concept of working on saturday nights and not going to sleep on sunday mornings because that just causes me to sleep straight through church.

my mom and i moved into my granparents house this past week. living there is nice. my granparents love me to death, and vice versa. its gonna be good. i know it.

"God is great! He's the one who gave all this to me,
and He's certainly the one who can take it all away.

Blessed be the name of the Lord."

Job said that.

self-control

Lord I need it. I need it now.

I'm sorry Lord for the sin I've made it, when it should be all about You.

girl that's kiiiiiinda the waaaaay i'm feeling

A really great friend is leaving. It's difficult, I won't lie, but I know with God's help I can deal with it. BUT.. there's nothing that person could say or do that God couldn't satisfy me very much more better. I need to learn to put Him as my main source of contentment. I'm still working on that. She is a huge part of my life and I do not want to say goodbye. I know I love her, and care about her, but it's gotten to the point where I started to treat her coldly out of my ignorance to the perfect will of God. I need to just shut up and let God do what He knows is best. No matter what happens, I know God's promise in Jeremiah 29:11 will always remain:

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope."

I know that whatever happens, she's in God's hands and our friendship is there as well. Pray for me. I need Jesus in this situation.

praise You in this storm

One of my favorite men from the Bible is Job. I love the story because it shows that bad things happen to us even though we might be living 'high' according to the world. He had everything before Satan was allowed to mess with his stuff. The thing is though, even though he had all that stuff, Job was a godly man. He loved his Lord and even after all the things were taken away from him, he still praised God in that storm. What a wonderful example for us to live by. He praised God in the midst of his wife nagging at him, his friends nagging at him, etc. In the end he started to question God and start thinking, but God spoke to Job out of the storm in the final chapters:

"Who is this that darkens my counsel with words without knowledge? Brace yourself like a man; I will question you, and you shall answer me."

I just find that verse so encouraging sometimes because I feel like whenever I feel like any type of power, I realize how much MORE God has.

It was SUCH a blessing to be able to read through that and spend time with Amanda today.

Thank You Jesus for Your incomparable sacrifice on the cross. I pray now for the people in the Midwest who have been affected by the weather in such a terrible way. I know You have all things working together for good to them Lord. Thank You for my family and my friends that You've placed in my life. You're an awesome God, Lord, and I can't thank You enough for the blessings You've given.

we will never be the same

the song 'glory of it all' by david crowder* band:

"the glory of it all is You are here with redemption for us all ... everything will change, things will never be the same, we will never be the same"

God's glory and only Son came down to earth to die for our sins. That should change everything in our lives greatly. It's absurd the way I've been thinking lately. May God change my heart quickly and according to His great and glorious will.

shrewd innocence?

the sitename for this blog came from a picture I saw that had a snake and dove drawn in pencil, and theres a banner that says:

"wise as serpents innocent as doves"

and that is something Jesus called His disciples to be in Matthew 10. I found the word shrewd in a different translation. I love it because it's hard to be both of those at the same time while witnessing. It's very easy to be innocent when it comes to witnessing; being shrewd is harder for us because it doesn't seem like a very winning strategy. But, earlier in the passage, Jesus told them to go witness to the lost sheep of Israel, not just the Gentiles. He wanted them to be shrewd and innocent, strategic in witnessing and above reproach.

so yeah i just wanted to explain the whole "shrewd innocence" thing.