self-control

Lord I need it. I need it now.

I'm sorry Lord for the sin I've made it, when it should be all about You.

girl that's kiiiiiinda the waaaaay i'm feeling

A really great friend is leaving. It's difficult, I won't lie, but I know with God's help I can deal with it. BUT.. there's nothing that person could say or do that God couldn't satisfy me very much more better. I need to learn to put Him as my main source of contentment. I'm still working on that. She is a huge part of my life and I do not want to say goodbye. I know I love her, and care about her, but it's gotten to the point where I started to treat her coldly out of my ignorance to the perfect will of God. I need to just shut up and let God do what He knows is best. No matter what happens, I know God's promise in Jeremiah 29:11 will always remain:

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope."

I know that whatever happens, she's in God's hands and our friendship is there as well. Pray for me. I need Jesus in this situation.

praise You in this storm

One of my favorite men from the Bible is Job. I love the story because it shows that bad things happen to us even though we might be living 'high' according to the world. He had everything before Satan was allowed to mess with his stuff. The thing is though, even though he had all that stuff, Job was a godly man. He loved his Lord and even after all the things were taken away from him, he still praised God in that storm. What a wonderful example for us to live by. He praised God in the midst of his wife nagging at him, his friends nagging at him, etc. In the end he started to question God and start thinking, but God spoke to Job out of the storm in the final chapters:

"Who is this that darkens my counsel with words without knowledge? Brace yourself like a man; I will question you, and you shall answer me."

I just find that verse so encouraging sometimes because I feel like whenever I feel like any type of power, I realize how much MORE God has.

It was SUCH a blessing to be able to read through that and spend time with Amanda today.

Thank You Jesus for Your incomparable sacrifice on the cross. I pray now for the people in the Midwest who have been affected by the weather in such a terrible way. I know You have all things working together for good to them Lord. Thank You for my family and my friends that You've placed in my life. You're an awesome God, Lord, and I can't thank You enough for the blessings You've given.